Saxon v Celts

Well I am back from my trip over the border and into the world, Essex is my place of birth and it was nice to return home and catch up with long lost friends and family. While there I spent time alone wandering around the hamlet of my childhood, the thing that caught me was the intensity of memories and sadly the changes that have taken place during my 11 years in Cornwall, I guess I am homesick. I came to Cornwall back then to study my family history as it would appear that the earliest record of my family name originated in Illogan back in the 1500's while I was studying I fell into a job driving articulated trucks for the then English China Clay at Par Docks, from this developed my interest in the Paranormal and my current work at Bodmin Jail. It sounds an easy existence but Cornwall is harsh, forget the chocolate box image of the county, in the past 3 years I can count on one hand the days of warm sunlight and all the images that go with it.

Life has been hard here, I came up with a saying last year, in Essex we lived in Cornwall we survive!! now before the nationalists say “well that’s because you are just one more emmit” I will retort that my ancestors were Cornish and indeed one was married to Richard Trevithick the Cornish God of Steam, and my two daughters are Cornish, I love this place and have devoted 11 years of my life here, but I am what I am an Anglo Saxon from Essex and therefore have ambition and a drive to make a better life for myself and my family, there is a world out there beyond the tamar bridge and that life is better paid with more prospects for development.  My business in the spiritual capital of Cornwall Tintagel is no more, and is now sadly reduced to just an exercise in legal and damage control, I started the exciting prospect of running a proper business full of enthusiasm and drive, but it became obvious that unless you are local and know the right people in this part of the world it makes little difference how good you are at something you will never get to the point of becoming financially secure, when so called Reiki Masters can charge anything from £40 to £400!! pound per hour up country for a single healing session, and even when I reduced my fee to £10 for an hour I was still confronted by apathy and a sucking of breath and cries of “how much” it became obvious things have to change. So ladies and gentleman as we survived being destroyed as a human race this Christmas its time to look to that future.

I will be expanding my field of business interests beyond the border of Cornwall and even across into France/Brittany during 2012, I have to think of the future of my family, and rise above the general malaise that seems to inhabit the circles I work in. Some people will drift away that we have known during our time here and its to be expected, friendship is a transient thing at best, I don’t outwardly seek publicity for the things I do I tend to let my actions speak for me, so I forsee a time when people that have called me friend for some time in this part of the world wont even remember me or what I did in the future.

Despite the rather dull and self wallowing aspect of what I have just written, I am actuality looking forward to 2012 and the future, perhaps the Myan's were not talking about the termination of the human race after all but perhaps just a termination of old ways of life and a fresh start, anyhow bless you all and I will see you all in 2012.



In the words of Peter Gabriel and Salisbury Plain

To keepin' silence I resigned
My friends would think I was a nut
Turning water into wine
Open doors would soon be shut
So I went from day to day
Tho' my life was in a rut
"Till I thought of what I'd say
Which connection I should cut
I was feeling part of the scenery
I walked right out of the machinery
My heart going boom boom boom
"Hey" he said "Grab your things
I've come to take you home."

When illusion spin her net
I'm never where I want to be
And liberty she pirouette
When I think that I am free
Watched by empty silhouettes
Who close their eyes but still can see
No one taught them etiquette
I will show another me
Today I don't need a replacement
I'll tell them what the
smile on my face meant
My heart going boom boom boom
"Hey" I said "You can keep my things,
they've come to take me home."